im a 19 year old girl and ive been gonig out with a 34 year old man for about 7 months. we both really like each other and ive met most of his friends so i know it’s not just a casual fling for sex… we met in october when i was 18 and after the second date i lost my virginity to him. looking back at it i feel sad because i wanted to lose it when i was in love. although now i think i love him it hurts me that it wasn’t special for him…. it was just a sha*.
the problem is that im worried about how genuine he is.when im out with him he constantly stares at other women which makes me feel like crap. i also went on his computer and he still has pictures (some of them explicit) of his ex girlfriends from years and years ago… i also found an msn conversation from 2008 with a girl asking her if she had removed their profile from "adult finder"… by this, im assuming that he means the website adultfriendfinder.com…..
what i want to ask you guys is what should i do? is it normal for guys to use the website to find a f***buddy? is it creepy? is it wrong? does it make him more prone to cheating on me? ive always thought that he was a sleazy guy deep down, and out for what he can get but he denies this and always makes me feel like a horrible person when i ask him about his past relationships and how many people he’s slept with. when i asked him this question he responded with 24 people, but it took him a while to spit the truth out, and even now i think he had probably reduced the number to make himself sound less promiscuous.
every time i think about this i cry. he’s my first proper boyfriend and i dont want to appear as the stupid young girl. i feel so alone because i cant ask my family (they dont know im going out with him and would go crazy if they found out) and i cant tell my friends because i dont want to burden them all the time with stories of my suspicions.
Please could you guys help……… xxxx